On 12/15/05, JJ Virgin wrote:
"birthday shmirthday
please email me and explain why you want to be 200#
let's get your reasons in writing and your goals clear
step one
and happy birthday
now decide if you want to be 200# or 300#, up to you, no one else
but an BIG Fat gay country line dancer is NOT a pretty site, no matter how
much charisma you have"
WOW...
That is probably the meanest thing you've ever said to me, and ya know what, you're exactly right!!! It IS up to me, and I don't have to settle (nor can I afford to settle) for my old habits. I've been FIRMLY back on track for about a week now and I wonder why I ever settled for how crappy I felt while I was eating sugar! I feel so alert, so alive, so refreshed! I have support in my life now (no, not Leah...there are 3 co-workers who are changing their eating habits with me).
MY GOALS:
1) To regain enough control of my life and eating habits to once again be 235lbs like I was at the end of the show.
THEN, 2) To regain enough control of my life and eating habits to once again be 204lbs like I was just before I lost control of myself. Ya know something, I realized that I was scared to be below 200lbs. That meant that if I ever WERE to go above 200 again, it would be SO MUCH MORE devistating than if I had not gone below 200 to begin with. It's a whole other classification -- there's the fit people, then there's the "over 200's". You know what I mean?
AND THEN, 3) To finally break below 200lbs while bursting through any plateaus I may have encounterd.
FINALLY, 4) To reach my goal of 185lbs with the right BMI and perfect health.
~Michael
